hesitation

feeling like i’ll never understand this
all the things i hate about myself
the mistakes i made, i never planned this
everytime i’m good, there’s something else

realize i’m always overthinking
never learned just how to let things be
search inside myself to find the answers
i am not the man i want to be.

look inside of me, tell me what you see
pick it apart tell me what you see
just don’t you give up on me
and i don’t feel the same in my own skin
and i’m fed up with battles i can’t win.

constantly in fear of isolation
is someone after me? i just can’t tell
never felt like leaving myself open
living life, depending on myself.